Just some things I’ve been thinking about. . .
What if I don’t need everything I think I need? What if I lose everything, but grow closer to God as a result?
What if I don’t really want what I think I want? What if losing everything–really LOSING EVERYTHING– actually is the source of true gain?
What if Jesus was exactly right when he said, “Blessed are the poor?”
What if all the personas I try to adopt to put myself in the best possible light with others are themselves only shadowy projections of an insecure ego separated from God?
What if there is nothing great that I must do, no goal I must achieve beyond union with God? What if career and calling are subtle traps for the ego, taking me away from knowing God?
What if the most important thing I can do is pray? What if all my attempts to wrap myself up in achievements and activit–to make myself look good–are worth nothing compared to the openness of naked surrender to God?
What if becoming less wealthy, less important, less connected, less well thought of leads to the very death of self that allows God in? What if, in all my grasping, I grasp only misty shadows, and lose God?
What if self-improvement is not truly possible, and there is only being more or less united to God?
What if gaining the world really does mean losing my soul?
What if there is no one I need impress, nothing I must achieve, no pleasure that would make me happier? What if all I need is God?
What if making life better is a chimera? What if there is no better save union with God?
What if all the work I must do is in the world within, rather than in the world without, deep down where my soul meets with God?
What if, finally, God is all there is, and all there need be?